This Teen's Childhood Diary Is Epically Savage

by Dasha Fayvinova

There is nothing like reading over old middle school projects, Mother's Day cards from when you were in kindergarten, or even notes you sneakily passed in high school. I re-experienced those emotions when reading over this teenager's diary from when she was seven years old. Full of angst, filled to the brim with judgement, and overflowing with longing — everything about this diary is relatable. We all must have felt the same way at one point in our lives or another; Madie Cardon was just smart enough to write her experiences down.

Madie is a 16-year-old high school student from Mapleton, Utah. After finding her childhood diary, she couldn't help but share her findings with the internet. And if I may, I would like to thank Madie on behalf of all women, men, and children who have done the same but never had the guts to share the entries out loud. Obviously, the things she talked about at age seven are not highly consequential or have high repercussions now. Still — it takes guts to share embarrassing inner monologues and that's what makes her writing awesome.

On Valentine's Day in particular, Madie's diary entry reads like an badly-spelled Alanis Morissette song.

My deppresin is getting strong. Today is Valentines Day. I made Riley a valentine. Me and Katelyn stayed up all night makin it. Before Riley got to school I put it in his desk. (number 22 <3) When he got to school he looked in his desk he found my box. I wrote anomious on it so he wouldn’t know it was from me. Rigt when he looked at it throw away. I am still cring.

Needless to say, not only did Riley straight up throw out the card right in front of her face, he also ended up going steady with Jessica and not her. Those are a string of losses Madie, and I feel you. I feel you so hard on all of this. My love life is still a mess, but when I was younger — it was truly pathetic.

Since I am sharing Madie's diary entries, I thought it would only be fair to share mine from 2007.

Ethan was a boy who I was MADLY in love with in middle school. He read The Stranger at age 12 and totally got it. I assumed he was going to marry me because he was smart and knew what I had to offer at age 12. I think he ended up going to an Ivy League and continued to be smart.

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In fact, I have kept a diary/journal since 2007 and looking back at the things I was worried or concerned with is not only precious, but often times laugh-out-loud funny. Boy drama, friend drama, stress over school work, and the underlying current of teen-angst permeates the entire thing. As someone who's writing this while eating dino-nuggests for breakfast — taking a walk in the past doesn't have to be as far back as Madie's diary entries. Even looking at old Facebook posts can be pretty traumatic. Prime example:

Why on God's green earth did I think any of these were worth sharing with people online? I will never know.

Images: Pixabay, Dasha Fayvinova