"Just listen to your gut and stop when you feel the cards are ready." I shuffled the deck a few times, with some cards individually being taken out and placed meticulously somewhere else. When I finished a few moments later, Mama Donna laughed and said, "That was decisive."
She came and sat next to me, before blessing my third eye with an amethyst oil. Afterwards, Mama Donna went on to explain how each suit in the deck corresponds to an element and either the mental, emotional, physical, or spiritual side of us.
The first card, called the Indicator, stood for the part of me that the cards address in this one reading. Mama Donna flipped over the "Man of Cups" which symbolized how I handle emotions superficially without ever truly diving into them and understanding them on a deeper level.
She then turned over another two cards that were meant to be situations I was currently dealing with. They both ended up being cups ("You've got three of the four. I've never seen that!") with one being the Sage and the other being the Child. If I came for a reading that focused on my emotions and relationships, I got way more than I could've expected. The Sage card is about feeling confident about your knowledge and beliefs. "If there's some dry place in your emotional spectrum, water it. Give yourself what you need and don't necessarily expect someone else to do that." She explained the child card, saying that it's meant to tell me to allow myself to acknowledge my emotions and truly let myself feel them, even if they're not always the most pleasant.
She continued to flip cards, and I continued to get more royal and major arcana cards. "The major arcana cards is all of the above. So those are weightier. I can't say they're more important, but they affect more of your being than just one card or another." The card meant to symbolize my "past" was the Sun, which was meant to show I've previously had to learn the lesson that I need to accept love and find happiness in even the darkest of times. Mama Donna then brought the reading back to my current situation cards, telling me that they're the new lessons I need to tackle.
Mama Donna kept analyzing my tarot cards, and flipped one over that shows a perfect diamond on the top half, and broken crystals on the bottom half.
"What it's saying is concentrate on the diamond that you've become so far and the diamond that you aspire to be someday," she said. "These broken thoughts are things that would hold you from doing that."
The "Love Card"
The card meant to symbolize my hopes and my fears turned out to be the "Love" card, which shook me a bit, seeing as how I went on this quest in the hopes that I would learn more about how I can change my perspective on the love in my life. "There's nothing in this reading that would accentuate the fear and lots that would support the love. It's playful, it's feeding yourself, it's artistic, it's listening to the signs and your gut. Everything is supporting the hope. Unless you let these stupid thoughts run wild, you've got it."
My outcome card was another crystals card that told me what I'm looking for at the end of this journey is balance. "You want to have a balanced mind, you want to have balanced emotions."