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Demi Lovato’s “Cali Sober” Comments Suggest Recovery Doesn’t Have To Be A Binary

“Recovery is not one-size-fits-all, and we have to do what best allows us to survive.”

By Lexi McMenamin

In Demi Lovato’s YouTube docuseries Dancing With the Devil, the singer describes herself as “California sober” — meaning, in her own words, she still drinks and uses cannabis “in moderation.”

“I’ve learned that it doesn’t work for me to say that I’m never going to do this again. I know I’m done with the stuff that’s going to kill me, right?” Lovato shared in the series, which digs into her 2018 near-fatal overdose. “Telling myself that I can never have a drink or smoke marijuana, I feel like that’s setting myself up for failure.”

In the context of recovery, “Cali sober” refers to someone who “abstains from ‘hard drugs,’ such as heroin, cocaine, or methamphetamines but may continue to use marijuana or psychedelics on occasion,” according to Antonio Ruberto, who oversees substance use treatment and recovery support at the LGBT Community Center in New York City.

The interest in Cali sobriety as a lifestyle picked up at the beginning of 2020, per Google Trends data, following on the heels of the “sober curious” movement, which gained traction around mid-2019. (People who are “sober curious” may not have a substance use disorder but take steps to drink less anyway, which can include continuing to smoke pot.) “Cali sober” can evoke strong feelings among those who are sober: Many criticized Lovato for using the phrase because in traditional recovery communities, the norm is that people with substance use disorder practice total abstinence from all substances in order to avoid a relapse. But for some in recovery, the term is actually a way to make sobriety more approachable.

Ruberto worries that “Cali sober” oversimplifies the complexity of each individual’s experience of addiction; it can “provide an ‘out’ for individuals from having to thoroughly explore their substance use.”

Isabel, 23, who is in recovery herself, puts it bluntly. “The cutesy term [‘Cali sober’] gestures to this glamorous, idyllic notion that one can be sober without actually having to abstain from substances or alter their lifestyle in any way,” she says.

Lucas, 32, a recovering alcoholic who uses cannabis for their disability, says they don’t have an issue with Lovato calling herself “Cali sober,” but fear it having unintended consequences. “My concern is that this’ll invite mockery, both to Demi and others [in recovery],” Lucas says, by encouraging others to trivialize sobriety or make light of substance use, “and that this will close the conversation on the reality that recovery and sobriety mean different things to different people.”

At the same time, some say the concept can open the door to a more nuanced conversation around sobriety. “My impression of Cali sober was just you don’t drink but you smoke weed,” says Phoenix, 31, who’s been in recovery for five years. “It seems like what [Lovato’s] going for is more like moderation.”

“Recovery is not one-size-fits-all, and we have to do what best allows us to survive,” Isabel says, adding that she agrees with Lovato’s overall comments. “She is actually practicing and encouraging harm reduction here,” referring to the practice of minimizing bad consequences of substance use, like criminalization, rather than solely focusing on avoiding drinking or drug use itself.

Ruberto affirms that sobriety and harm reduction don’t have to be polar opposites, though the center does employ an abstinence-based model in its recovery program. Rather, they are “two ends of a spectrum of possibilities for a person to reach a relationship with substances that is healthiest for them.”

Before the start of the COVID-19 pandemic, Isabel attended AA meetings daily; when she lost that structure, she says, she was “terrified” she would relapse. In the months since, Isabel has appreciated being able to create a recovery plan outside of AA, pulling away from binary thinking around sobriety, though she says she still engages in “total abstinence.”

“Sobriety, and recovery, is a lot more than just not doing drugs and drinking,” Isabel says. “I wish [sober people] held more space for those who either are not ready to quit using substances entirely or have no plans to do so at all.”

For Phoenix, AA was the start of their recovery process. “It was really important to be in spaces [like AA] where I didn’t feel judged,” they tell Bustle. But they found other people in the program to be “judgmental about drug use in general, specifically about smoking weed. It’s very looked down on, like, ‘You’re not really sober.’ And after a certain period of time, it felt like I couldn’t go to those meetings without basically lying by omission.”

Phoenix stopped attending meetings after two years; they haven’t had a drink in five. But rather than identifying as “sober,” Cali or otherwise, they prefer the term “in recovery.”

“Because I think that that will always be true, no matter what I’m using or not using,” Phoenix says. “It’s very much a process I don’t think ever really ends.”

If you or someone you know is seeking help for substance use, call the SAMHSA National Helpline at 1-800-662-HELP(4357).