So THIS Is What Was In Arie's Secret 'Bachelor' Journal For Emily

It's been years since Arie Luyendyk Jr. had his heart broken on the set of The Bachelorette after "the kissing bandit" was surprisingly eliminated in favor of Jef Holm, the man who ultimately won Emily Maynard's affection. Arie left Emily his journal on The Bachelor, in hopes of demonstrating to her just how much he loved her. Famously, in the "After the Final Rose" special, Emily revealed that she didn't read the journal, but what did Arie's journal say?

Arie talked about the journal to Reality TV World in 2012, soon after the season. "I mean, I wrote down so many things throughout the whole experience, not just about her, just about everything in general and my life and where I was at that moment," he said. He didn't offer any specific quotes from what he'd written, but he did say, "It's something that's close to my heart and it's my experience on the show."

ABC's Robert Mills told Entertainment Tonight that Arie's journal moment actually helped sell him on casting Arie as the Bachelor this season. When Arie went to meet Emily to make the exchange, "It wasn't like, "Oh, let me have the cameras come in,'" Mills explained. "He went by himself without telling anybody, and saw her and met with her. He really was head over heels in love with this woman." Mills also said, "[Arie's] dated a lot of women since Emily, but he says he's never been in love since." And Emily seemed happy to hear the news that Arie was cast, telling US Weekly, "He’s a gentleman through and through and all the girls on his season are lucky to have him."

In this excerpt from Arie's journal, as posted by Wetpaint, the former Bachelorette contestant had some kind words for his fellow competitor as well as the women whose affections they were both fighting for. It reads:

"Hung out most of the day with Jef," the excerpt begins. "Really glad I have someone fun and cool to hang with here. It’s nice to talk to Jef because we are really similar when it comes to Emily and how this experience is coming along. It doesn’t really bother me if he talks about their time or when they kiss, in a way I root for him because I know if I wasn’t the one for her that I could make peace with the fact Jef was right for her."

But while the two may have been tight while they were on the show together, it now looks like this bromance is as over as Jef and Emily's romance. Holm posted on Twitter just after Arie's Bachelor-hood was announced in order to disavow his former friend.

So now, five years later, Emily Maynard, Jef Holm, and Arie himself all seem to have let the journal go, from Jef and Arie's friendship coming to an end to Emily not holding any grudges even though she didn't want to read the journal when Arie first left it for her. However, Arie did tell Reality TV World in the same interview that when he flew to North Carolina to leave the journal for Emily, he didn't realize she was already engaged to Jef. "I wasn't really offended [that she didn't read the journal], because that was obviously a very tough decision for her and she had to follow her heart."

Fans may have been furious that they were robbed of a fairytale ending between the two, but according to Arie, he would have never wanted to get between Jef and Emily. He's more than satisfied to look for love again on his own, and probably journal about it while he does.