Beauty is an essential way we express ourselves in daily life. In fact, you might not realize how important your beauty routine is to you until you can't do it anymore. That's was the case for Hannah Forcier, a YouTuber who burnt off her hair from using a drugstore hair relaxer. Now, she's finding strength in losing her hair due to the chemical damage. Forcier is sharing every step of the harrowing journey with her followers, proving that confidence can come from the most unexpected circumstances.
"It was Tuesday, Oct. 10 at 3:30 p.m. when my world changed," Forcier's first Instagram post after the accident reads. According to her YouTube video on the topic, Forcier tried out a drugstore relaxer on her damaged hair on Oct. 10. Upon putting on the relaxer and waiting the recommended time, she began washing out the cream solution. That's when massive clumps of her hair started falling out.
"I started to wash it out and it started feeling really clumpy, and [my hair] started falling out," she says in the YouTube video. "I could feel my hair coming out and going down my back. And you could hear it splashing in the water."
A relaxer is a lotion or cream that makes hair easier to straighten. As YouTuber and hairstylist Brad Mondo explains in reaction to Forcier's video, relaxers are the "most harsh thing you can possibly, possibly, possibly put on your hair." Because Forcier's hair was already in a damaged state by being bleached and dyed, the relaxer burned away at the cuticle of her hair which caused it to snap.
"I went from this bubbly, fun bleach blonde to a timid, self loathing broken girl," her Instagram caption says. "I didn’t feel like me anymore, which is hard for some people to understand."
At the end of her first video, Forcier explained that she didn't know what she would do with her social media channels, leaving her fans under the impression that she would be gone for a while. Five days later, however, she was back on her Instagram and making videos again.
What changed? Well, according to her Instagram post, it was the response she got from her fans.
"When I posted my video, I was afraid but everyone responded with such love it made me realize how lucky I am to have you, all of you, in my life," Forcier's Instagram post reads. "I am feeling more confident by the day."
According to her video on Nov. 12, she's still struggling with her hair journey, but she's using her YouTube channel to share her journey.
In just a short amount of time, Forcier is showing that she's not letting, as she calls it, her "mistake" get her down. Since her story time video, she has been embracing her new look and making YouTube videos again. She even uploaded a video where she tries on wigs. In the video, she says that she had gotten used to herself with no hair.
It's also worth noting that nowhere throughout the videos does Forcier call out the drugstore relaxer brand. She takes accountability for the fact that her hair burned off because she didn't read the directions properly. Despite some backlash, which she has made a video all about, Forcier is staying strong by documenting her journey after the devastating mishap.
One of the main struggles that Forcier is exploring is the notion that long hair makes women "beautiful." She explains in her most recent video that she found herself wearing more makeup and accessories to show that she is a woman, but has chosen to stop.
"I would just rather not wear [makeup and accessories] at all and then try and find it in me to feel right," she says in the video. She then takes off all of her accessories and makeup in front of the camera.
There's no telling where Forcier's journey will lead her. But her bravery in sharing her story is incredibly admirable.