This 'Shahs' Recap Video Is A Must-Watch

Monday night is a big night for ol' Kristie: Not only am I chomping at the bit to watch the Vanderpump Rules season finale (I always love photo shoot mayhem), but the long-awaited fourth season of Bravo reality series Shahs of Sunset will begin. FINALLY. As if my favorite channel knew exactly what I needed to prepare for the premiere, BravoTV.com posted a two-minute recap of what's happened on the show so far. The video is a terrific trip down memory lane; there's the cast trip to Turkey, there's Golnesa Gharachedaghi brandishing a taser, there's Reza Farahan proposing to Adam Neely, and so on.

However, there is one noteworthy moment that did not make the recap. A moment from the show that I've thought about more than any other moment from the show. A moment that I've replayed in my mind at least 400 times. And that moment was when the Season 3 finale juxtaposed footage of five of the six Shahs celebrating Reza's 40th birthday in Palm Springs with footage of former cast member Lilly Ghalichi eating takeout by herself.

Look, there's nothing inherently sad about ordering in and hanging out with your dog. If I'm being perfectly honest, grubbing takeout and chilling with a pup sounds like a dream way to spend an evening. But context changes everything; at that point, the wedge between Lilly and her cast mates was only growing. Lilly was on the outs.

Up until that scene, Lilly had not appeared in the finale. Up until that scene, it had been Slip 'N Slide fun and door debacles in Palm Springs. So when the ep suddenly switched from the heartwarming birthday dinner over to Lilly removing food containers from a plastic bag and talking to Coconut the dog, it gave me what could only be described as the emotional bends. It was all too much.

And if I thought I wasn't ready to see the solo dinner, I was REALLY not ready to hear to Lilly's voiceover: “I regret pulling away from the group. To not have them be a part of my life anymore is definitely sad.”

DEVASTATING.

The unexpected change in tone was overwhelming. One moment, I was watching a tight-knit clique toasting to friendship and love and family, and the next, I was watching the one cast member who can't fit in with the rest of the cast pouring dog food in Coconut's bowl and lamenting about not being a part of the clique.

Bravo may have moved on from that scene, but I will never move on from that scene.

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